Ok here goes, today is Sunday, February 21, 2010. I want this to be the last day of the fat, lazy, unmotivated person I have turned into. Saying I let myself go is an understatement. I have turned into a food crazed pig and just let my weight balloon to an all time high. I told myself after I graduated high school and got to about 340 pounds, that I would never let myself get this way again. This was in the summer of 2002. By the summer of 2003, I was 223 pounds at my lowest and felt absolutely amazing. I was able to shop at any store I wanted and did not have to worry about if things were going to fit me.
Slowly I started to put the weight back on. From about 2004-2008 I would fluctuate between 265 and 285. At this weight I was still over weight but I was comfortable with myself. After I got married I just stopped caring. My main problem is over eating and always wanting to go out to eat. What can I say, I have an addiction to food. My weight did not start to become a real problem until I moved out on my own. When I moved out I can remember being about 280. Instead of staying home and cooking, my wife and I found it much easier to just go out. Pizza, chinese, chicken wings, subs, chain restaurants. It was just so much easier to go out.
My weight started to increase. 290, 295, 300, 305, 310, 315, 320, 325, 330. I hit 330 and felt absolutely disgusting but kept eating. I kind of hit a plateau because I stayed around this range for quite a while, about a year to be exact. At this weight I couldn’t get clothes at regular stores, I had to resort to the Big and Tall, staying in the Big section of course. The only place I could get pants was on Old Navy’s website, which also has an exclusive Big and Tall section.
My wife and I made a decision to move south and that’s when things really hit rock bottom for me. Things didn’t work out for us down there and we moved back to the Empire State. We brought back some good memories and I brought back about 15 more pounds.
So as your reading this I am sure you’re wondering why is this idiot writing about being fat. Well, I have tried every sort of diet and nothing works for me. I have always known that these fad diets are just temporary fixes. That’s how I lost all the weight in ’02-’03, Adkins Diet.
What I need to do is change my life style. I need to be honest with myself and look myself in the mirror and say enough is enough. I am hoping that by writing these blogs, and sharing my successes and hard times with people who care, that it will help me get to where I need to get. So I am hoping to write 2-3 times a week. I would appreciate support, comments, suggestions from anyone who feels they have something to offer. I am sure I am not the only one who has a few LBs to lose so maybe I can motivate some of you as well.
So what I am going to start with is a couple reasons why I want to lose weight:
1. I am uncomfortable doing ANYTHING. I am out of breath doing stuff as simple as going up some stairs. I struggle to get up and down from chairs, couches, out of my car, its ridicules.
2. I want my clothes to fit me again. Currently I have one pair of jeans that fit and one pair of dress pants that fit and about 5 different shirts. Not only that I want to be able to go shopping again. Big and Tall stores are just enabling me to stay fat.
3. Being fat is embarrassing. I feel uncomfortable doing pretty much everything. It’s so bad now that I rarely take of my jacket. Essentially I am hiding behind my jacket. All of my friends are thin and in decent shape and it just embarrasses the crap out of me to be around them
4. I have two weddings to go to in August, one of them I am in. I don’t want to be the fat friend who looks bad in all the wedding pictures.
5. I play softball, starting in May. I play third base. The first season I played I did pretty well. Last season was terrible. I hit nothing more than a single because I was so slow. Being in the field was the same, about the only ball I could get were the ones hit right to me because I had no lateral movement.
6. I have man boobs. Enough said.
7. See reason 6.
I could go on and on with reasons but those are just a couple for now. As I think of more I will add them.
Anyway, I hope this doesn’t sound like a ramble and hope you understand why I am doing this.
Now, I wish I could take all this weight off by the end of the week but I know that is not happening. So my goal is to lose 2 pounds a week and about 8-10 pounds a month. Hopefully by the end of the year I can say I lost 100 lbs, again.
Tomorrow is not the first day of my diet, tomorrow is the first day of my life style change!
WISH ME LUCK...........
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